Rituals
For getting back into the swing of things. No, I haven’t been perfect. Yes, I’ve taken two steps forward and one step back. But I am consistently waking up early during the week, between 6:00 and 6:15am, to have some time to myself before D wakes up. I drink my AG1. I have a cup of coffee. I have some peace + quiet before the day begins and I love it. Maybe I’ll lift some weights tomorrow.
For walking D to school. Now that I’m back in an office, I don’t have as many opportunities to pop out for a walk and change of scenery. Walking her to school, chatting up some mom friends and getting fresh air before heading to the office makes my morning so much better. Now if only I could find a way to squeeze in a quick walk with Lu, too.
For doing what I could do in a day, and not grinding after-hours on projects that can wait until tomorrow. Instead of opening the laptop back up, I had dinner with my family. I sat in the hot tub with my daughter. I did some yoga. I snuggled my Lu girl. I chose how to spend my time and energy and it felt refreshing.
For recapping the day, in my favorite comfy clothes, with a candle burning in the background and appreciating how far I’ve come. Three years ago, I would have been sitting on the couch, drinking a bottle of wine…alone. Two years ago, I would have been anxious about having my salary cut and frantically searching for jobs. A year ago, I was hoping to create a new product, a business, a vision. Today, I am imagining how the year will unfold in beautiful, unexpected, and gratifying ways.
For feeling at peace with who I am and what my life looks like. It’s messy. It’s colorful. It’s complicated. It’s happy and sad and maddening. It’s scary and it’s beautiful. It’s guiding me and shaping me and changing everyday. Tonight, I’ll rest my mind and body, appreciating that I am exactly where I’m meant to be, doing exactly what I’m meant to do at exactly the right time.
With gratitude,
J
