Time Off
I took the day off. I wasn’t sick. I didn’t have plans. I wasn’t going anywhere, but I needed the time off. I’ve been feeling burnt out beyond belief. I can’t think things through. I can’t complete normal, daily tasks. I can’t focus. So, when I woke up this morning, I decided to take a day for myself.
To do nothing.
To do everything I wanted to do.
To relax and rest and reset.
I didn’t go anywhere, but I did have a fulfilling day. I am grateful that I listened to my inner knowing and spent my time doing the things that fill my cup:
I got up early, for the first time in a long time. I woke up before my daughter and I had time to myself to meditate and practice Reiki and drink my lemon water before anyone else needed things from me. It felt so peaceful and unrushed.
I walked my daughter and her friends to school. I took a picture of the three of them, walking and holding hands. I chatted with other parents. I made tentative plans for an end-of-school-year party in our backyard. I confirmed I did send in my daughter’s permission slip for an upcoming field trip. I walked home, leisurely, with no plans to be anywhere.
I took Lu for a long walk. I listened to a great podcast that took my mind off of the hard parts of life. I soaked in the sunshine. I moved my body. I breathed in the fresh air. I was in the moment.
I interviewed for a part-time or freelance position with an agency. I felt excited about what that could look like and mean for my time and freedom. I imagined what I could learn, what experiences I could gain. I felt like I was being true to myself. I was candid and honest. I don’t know where, or if, it will go but I felt proud of myself for exploring the opportunity.
I had tacos, on Taco Tuesday, outside on the deck with my family. I love this dinner because we all eat the same thing, we sit together and we talk about the day or what we want to do for the weekend. I love sitting outside and when the weather feels like summer - free and full of possibility.
I listened to my inner knowing - the part of me that told me to take a break - and I am so grateful I did. I didn’t light the world on fire, but I did light a fire inside myself to feel more full of life than I have in a long time.
